Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Strange Feeling

Lately I've been overcome by the strangest feeling... Suddenly, a part of me feels like staying on Saipan, or coming back home. After the past few days of Youth Congress meetings I've been harassed by an overwhelming feeling of commitment to Saipan...the CNMI. I feel as though there is so much I can contribute, given I had enough time. I don't have enough time. Maybe that's what makes me feel as though I should stay. Maybe it's a feeling of "unfinished" business. I need to go the States for college. I want to go to the States for college. I want a college degree from a United States college. It's as simple as that. I guess I'm going to have to sacrifice being away...letting my ideas accumulate and develop with my resume before I initiate my own process of contributing to our society. I need to learn the basics and polish myself like a great finish on some mahogany wood. I need to see the world. I need to learn. I need to meet new people and see new places. I need to delve into the uncomfortable. I need all that before I decide to settle down in one place. I need to spread my roots elsewhere--in places I don't call home. I need that.

Ok. :)

I feel better, now. :D

3 comments:

Angelo Villagomez said...

Go to college. With a college degree, you can do whatever you want on this island.

taylor elaine said...

i agree...we need to go to college and leave for a little bit.

wad said...

or, you could be like me and never come back ;P

haha.